DREAMS DO DIE
You probably are thinking… “Andrea, why did you title your blog post this?” Does that sound abrupt and maybe even a little insensitive? I did want to get your attention, but I also want to speak about something that is probably not talked about a lot. Dreams do die. I hadn’t thought of those words until I was sharing my heart with some friends yesterday at church and the husband said, “dreams do die and that is okay.” I’ll be honest, it sounded and felt a little frustrating at the time until I spent the day processing and realized that is exactly what is happening.
Like many of you I’m guessing, I have had dreams since I was a little girl. Ones that I have thought of over time. Ones that have given me direction. Ones that have grown and changed. Ones that have motivated me. Ones that I have taken into my own hands. Ones that I have laid down and surrendered and the ONE that I am letting die right now. I believe I must do this hard and faithful step before my heart can be open to what is next.
“The heart of a man plans his way, but the LORD establishes his steps.” – Proverbs 16:9
Let me preface with the sweetness of the Lord to give me this opportunity to move toward this dream of mine. Trusting and knowing His plan will be better than anything I could ever think or imagine. I have been praying and seeking the Lord for years about this, so I can have the experience to relate and have compassion for the people that He puts in my path daily to serve and walk with. Even if this is ALL I experience, I have already had such reflection on what my Clients go through.
Thanks for your patience here… Apparently, this is part of the healing and grieving process to write this out, because even typing this is challenging and takes a lot of courage. Here goes… My dream has been to buy a house for some time now. Not one that I really saw in reach until a few years ago. I started setting my eyes toward it. Making little steps. Praying about what and where the home would be. And not until NOW, am I realizing that part of that dream was that I would buy it with my husband. As you may know, I am not married. I am single. I am very content at most points in my singleness. I see and believe God is using me for His purposes in ways I don’t even know by being able to be single, for his Kingdom, but as you may have read in my last blog post, I do desire to be married and have a family if that is God’s will for me, so this step toward home ownership on my own is a definite leap!
Whoa buddy! Feew! That was SO good to say out loud. Good to write out. And now SO GOOD to remember the truths in the matter. No matter what happens. Whether I buy a house now or never…
God is good. (Titus 3:4-8)
God is faithful. (Deuteronomy 7:9)
God is with me. (Matthew 1:23)
God’s timing is perfect. (2 Peter 3:8-9)
Like many of nudges in my life, I will go forward toward a house purchase taking one faithful step at a time and stand expectant as to what God will do. I believe when we lay down our expectations, we then get to partner with our God who wants to interact with His creation (Genesis 2) and it makes the outcome so much sweeter.
Now to go look for houses! I will keep you posted (ha, pun intended)! Stay tuned my friends.
“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” – Romans 8:28